Behind this smile
I’m smiling, but inside I’m dying
Whenever I’m alone, I break down and being crying
I’m happy every once in a while
Behind this smile
I try so hard not let anyone breaks me down
Panic attacks and depression attacks me with no sound
Living in my past and drowning in my struggle
My life feels like it’s about to crumble
Behind this smile
I still tend to smile like nothing is wrong
Nobody knows I’ve been feeling this sickness called depression for this long
To stop me from having suicidal thoughts
I sit back and smile, begin writing and singing my favorite song
Behind this smile
It feels like my lungs and heart is tying up into knots
These past few years this beautiful girl had been though a lot
I’m sick of crying and tired of trying
Tired of this messed up society and your used to be friends lying
Behind this smile
I’m tired of hiding
I’m tired of fighting
I beg
Asking god to take all this pain and illness away
And hopefully I’ll be happy one day
No more depression
No longer show a fake face expression